Slaying the giant fondant dragon and other leaps of faith
WARNING: I’m not going to tell you how to make this cake; I am going to tell you how NOT to make this cake. Because this post is not about cake decorating; it's about slaying the inner dragon of procrastination, and fully embracing the story that God has for you.
I have always had cake decorating on my bucket list. After all, I love to bake, and I hold a rather expensive fine arts degree with a concentration in sculpture that has rendered itself pretty useless (sorry Mom and Dad) over the years. (Seriously, my kids are not going to a liberal arts college!) I have always heard how tricky fondant icing is, so I have procrastinated trying it for fear of failure. This week I decided to just jump in with both feet and try something new. It wasn't easy. It did not turn out to be perfect, and I almost gave up several times, but the result, be it ever so imperfect, brought sheer delight to my five-year-old and extreme satisfaction to me because I overcame my fear and procrastination and accomplished something.
Everyone has an inner dragon that stands between them and their dreams, breathing fiery lies of failure. To accomplish anything you have to slay this dragon. Okay, my deepest dreams are not baking a fondant cake, but it was a good illustration.
This past year I have been feeling a restlessness. I did not quite know what it was, but I had a feeling that there was something I was supposed to do. Start a blog? Rev up my freelance design business? No. Three kids—there is no time for that. I might fail. I just don't have what it takes. My feeling of calling was constantly wrestling my inner dragon. I would channel all this frustration into other things, not so healthy things, like focusing on my husband's career, constantly drilling him with questions about work and bestowing on him my expert advice on how he should do his job more effectively. I’m sure you can imagine the marital bliss this brought us.
I knew something had to give that if I procrastinated any longer one of two things would happen: I would go crazy or Matt would go crazy. And since we are parents of three small children and can't really handle any more crazy, it was time to get moving. I quickly discovered the only way to effectively overcome this dragon was to just step out in faith. I put my middle child in preschool so I could put some more time into my design business. I also decided to start this blog (not sure what the outcome will be yet, but even if it is for me to share the lessons I am learning in this stage of life with one person and bring encouragement, that will be enough). We never really know the reason God calls us to do something. We are just called to trust. For me, I saw three results immediately:
First was a feeling of peace which had not been there in months. Second was God sending design clients out of the woodwork, as well as a few faithful blog subscribers. Of course, the biggest blessing is that poor Matt has been freed up to do his job without a nagging advisor. And you know what? He seems to do brilliantly without her.
An overwhelming peace comes when you finally step out in faith and begin doing what God has made you and called you to do; when you finally slay that dragon who is breathing fiery lies of CAN’T in your face; when you begin to trust that He who has called you will fully equip you.
What is it you feel called to today that you are putting off? What fiery lies are preventing you from this? You may never know what you are capable of until you try.
PS. A few more cake pictures just because they are fun and I feel a little bad that I hooked you into thinking this post was all about cake baking.
PPS. A candle placed in the mouth made this a cool fire-breathing dragon for about three seconds. Should have taken into account the highly flammable nature of sugar. #Momfail